Tuesday, 26 November 2013

I've fallen and I can't get up.

I've fallen and I can't get up!!! 

Not sure what movie this is from but it is exactly how I am feeling at the moment. I feel like I am treading water but slowly running out of energy. 

I am really struggling with everything Nutrition, Exercise, Housework, Mothering, Wifey Duties etc etc etc. I feel very lost and all I want to do is lock myself away with a mountain of chocolate, a good book and say "Screw IT"!!!!! 

I spend Mondays and Tuesdays eating everything in sight and eating because I am bored. Then I spend the rest of the week being cross with myself and trying (rather unsuccessfully) to undo all the damage I have done in those few days. It is a vicious cycle. 

I'm really not sure what, when. why or how it has happened. But what I am trying to work out is how do I get out of it and how do I move on???? My days are blurring into one. I have been very lazy, tired, grumpy, lethargic etc etc. All the things that come with poor diet choices and no exercise. 

I am thinking that maybe fore the rest of this year rather then focusing on weight loss as it is completely doing my head in and making me feel like crap!! I will focus on maintenance and start again with the weight loss in the new year.  

I really don't know what to do or how to pull myself up. 

Maybe I should print this off and put it ALL over the house!!!! 


  1. I think when you get to a point as you have. Doing maintenance for the rest of the year is a good idea. You have come a long way already!
    Give your self (a break) and start the new year fresh.. coming up to Christmas and school holidays is tough enough without the added stresses. Be proud of what you have achieved and look forward to finishing your journey in the new year!!

  2. Marnie, what happened to your comments? I hope you didn't delete them??? I agree with you. and it was definitely the kick up the butt I needed. I am just feeling a little lost as to making goals and sticking to them. I have been trying to get to under 80kg since AUGUST!! August people!!!! That was 4 MONTHS AGO!!!!

    I am not giving up but just not going to put a figure on it. I will still weigh in every week and aim to lose and get into those shorts!!!!!

    1. Hi Nikki, I haven't deleted them, but they say they've been published and then a few minutes later they disappear! Glad to hear that you're finding that inner strength to push through. This time of year is difficult to keep on track with your life anyhow, regardless of trying to make lifestyle changes and then throw harvest into the mix. You will get there, just keep moving and eating as well as you can, Harvest (and stressful times) come around every year, so you just need to find strategies to keep your plan in place, otherwise every year you'll take those unwanted steps back and then spend January kicking the weight to the curb. Goodluck! I'm sitting here cheering you on from the sidelines willing you to reach your goal! Marnie xx (I'll try posting anonymously and see if the comment sticks this way!)

  3. Hay nikki just wondering if u have ever tried creatine I have started taking it a couple of times daily as it makes ur body use fat in stead of muscle as it energy sorce it also gives you a lot more energy... I have noticed a huge difference and helps loss those few extra kgs that are hard to shed... Stay strong :-) you insire me to do what I love I did the 21kms now I havnt been able to stop and reading ur posts always encourages me to try harder!

  4. I'm thinking it's the end of a loooooong year for you, am I right? You know you have a lot of people here backing you girl, but I "get" where you are at. It's hard to stay vigilant and "on" all the time. I'm not doing 12wbt this round officially, but still trying to maintain the program (a little bit unsuccessfully at the moment, or as of today unsuccessfully, darn CWA cake stall!!!!) so I'm trying to dip my feet into the water of foreverafter. Just get your head into a happy space, make a goal and just bit by bit start to work at it and chip away at the negative feelings. Keep posting too. Despite whatever you have to say, it will make you more accountable to what is going on.