Sunday, 16 March 2014

Reality Check

So time for a reality check and update. Since I stopped posting my weekly weigh in results things have been pretty below average. Basically I have been yo-yoing between around 88kg and 90kg. When I last shared my weight it was 87.2kg.

This is around 5kg more then my lowest weight last year. I got down to around 84kg. As you can imagine I am noticing my clothes are tighter and not fitting as nicely. Did someone say Muffin Top!!

I know what the problem is.............FOOD!!! I love food and while my diet has improved and I am trying lots of different yummy foods I just can't seem to get my mind back into the place it was this time last year. I can't seem to stop snacking or be satisfied with what I put on my plate.

I am back exercising so that is helping but I need to STOP snacking!!! I have been doing a lot of baking lately for the kids lunch boxes and I have been pretty good at not eating wheat I am baking. I tend to put it straight into the freezer to avoid me eating it. I have been snacking on things like hard boiled eggs, leftover cold meat from roasts, BREAD, mountain bread covered in margarine & honey is one of my current favourites.

After dinner also seems to be my other down fall. We are eating earlier so that we can eat together as a family. Previously Mark and I would eat at about 7:30pm once the kids were in bed. Now we are eating at 6:30pm with the kids. It's great and I love it but I find that at about 8pm I feel hungry again. Actually not that's not really true I think it is more that I am bored.

That is part of my problem during the day too. If I am busy I don't snack but as soon as I stop I feel like I have to have something. And once I have one thing to eat I tend to have a bit more. Old habits are sneaking back in!!

So what now????????? Well I don't really know but I do know that I don't like the way my clothes are fitting and I am the only person who can change that. I also know that I have done it before so I can do it again.

Thursday, 13 March 2014


For the last probably 2 yrs there is something that has been on my mind. And very recently I can not stop thinking about it. One day the answer is yes the next the answer is no. It not a decision that can be taken lightly as it will have a massive impact on not just my life but my whole family. It's not just my decision it is something hubby and I have to be in total agreement about or it will never happen.

So what is the BIG decision??? Well if you haven't already worked it out...........Do we have another baby or not?? We already have 3 beautiful, healthy, mostly happy kids. We have Lachlan 7, Molly 5(almost 6) & Amelia 2 (almost 3). I know some of you think that I am crazy for even contemplating it and maybe I am. I think I am crazy most days but that is a WHOLE other blog post.

The thing is if we are going to do it I feel like we need to do it in the next probably 6 months. For a few reasons: We aren't getting any younger, (I know 33/34 is not old and a lot of people haven't even started their families at our age) we don't want a bigger age gap then 4yrs, because of the weird school age cut offs in WA we want to have it in the first half of the year (which gives me until September).

I come from a family of 5 kids so there are a lot of us, we are loud, we fight, we laugh, we drive eachother crazy but there is nothing better then when we are all together and the cousins are all playing together even though they range in age from 18 to 2. They all get along and the older ones are great babysitters with the younger ones. I do have one sister who isn't really involved in the family but that is a whole other story. So it is just 4 of us and our families who get together for Christmases, birthdays etc etc

So what are the pros & cons...........There are too many to list as I am sure you can imagine things like finances, daily life, possibility of twins, starting again etc etc. And very selfishly it would mean things like weekends away either for hockey trips or just us as a couple would be no existent. It's hard enough getting someone to look after 3 kids let alone 4.

Thing is I just don't feel like I am DONE. Hubby goes back and forth too. I ask him and he says he doesn't know so to me that means yes there is still hope. And at the moment it is consuming me. To the point where last night I dreamt that I had a baby boy.

Maybe I was always be 'clucky' and maybe one more will always be how I feel. But I think you know when you are done and I am just not there yet. Although ask me at about 5pm on any given day and the answer is sure to be Hell YES I AM DONE!!!! Or at 6am on a Sunday after a night out. Oh that's right no more nights out with 4 kids.

Am I crazy??  I guess time will tell............

Thursday, 6 March 2014

Work (out) / Life balance

This is something I was struggling with a few weeks ago before a small hamstring tear made me slow down and REST. In the few weeks for before that hubby was leaving for very early (5am) and I was having to do my running in the evening. Which was working fine. I would leave the house between 5:30 & 6pm for about 45 min. Whilst I was gone hubby would give the kids their tea and a bath. I would be home in time for bed time. All was good.

Until the kids started asking if we could eat together again. This is something that we kind of lost over the holidays. Talk about mothers guilt!! I love running at the end of the day as it gives me that break you need at the end of the day. It clears my head and is the only time of day I don't have someone with me.

It got me thinking though. I am one of the first people to say happy wife/mum happy life. And that me taking care of my health is for the benefit of the whole family. But at what cost?? Is it worth missing out of having dinner with the kids or spending time playing out on the trampoline with them???
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So how do you strike the right balance?? That is a question that will probably never be answered.

Now that hubby is back to normal hours I can work out in the mornings. I do struggle to get out of bed early. I used to be a morning person and had no problem getting up early. Just ask my cousin who was NOT a morning person. She was a night owl and I was an early bird which made sleep overs interesting. I used to be one of those annoyingly happy people in the morning. Now once I'm up I'm all good it's just the getting up that I struggle with.

Now that winter sport is starting to happen......well my hockey training has started and football is likely to start before we know it along with dancing on Wednesdays. It means no family meals for 3 days a week. So I guess it's early morning runs for me. Which I guess gives me a chance to clear my head and start the day off on the right note. I mean I am the first to admit I can get out of bed grumpy but I have never come back from a run grumpy.