Sunday 29 September 2013

O.M.G.

Well I did it!!! I did a half marathon!!! And we raised more then enough money to buy the Defibrillator for the local sporting clubs.

It was an amazing day which started early for those of us whole ran the 21.1km. 11 of us were crazy enough to attempt the 21.1km. I didn't get off to the greatest of starts I was too busy talking and didn't work my music out properly. So I had to stop and get that sorted. We had some very serious runners who took off straight away. I was at the back of the pack (quite happily) for the first 4km. Until my good friend Mrs Pete ran with me for the next 6km. We couldn't  didn't talk to each other but it was comforting having someone there.

We reached the 10km mark in just under an hour. The walkers who were doing 11km left about 5 minutes before we got there. So from now on there were people around for most of the run. My brother ran with me for a little bit which was great and his support the whole day was awesome.   From 12 - 14km there is a BIG mountain  hill to climb. At the top of that hill I stopped for a drink. Silly silly idea.

My knee which has never bothered me before started to hurt. To the point where I could barely walk let alone run. There were tears...swearing....more tears....more swearing....I honestly thought that was it and I wouldn't be able to finish. I was devastated. Then hubby came past in the support vehicle offering water & powerade. He also had my brother with him and they didn't really say much but it was enough to get me going again.

I ran until about the 17km mark. Then I ran and walked on and off. I was catching up to walkers and in the end I was quite happy to walk amongst my friends for a bit. With about a kilometre to go I joined one of my good friends who had walked 5km. We had a good chat and then when we could see the finish line we started running.

It was the GREATEST feeling. After 2hrs 33min I had done something I never thought possible. As we were running into the oval we said that we were both tearing up. Then I said to her none of my family are here.(Mark, my brother & sister were all in support vehicles, the kids were running 2.5km, my brother in law who had already finished was back with the kids.) She said "But we're your family". That made me cry even more. It was the most amazing feeling to cross that finish line with people cheering and I know I wasn't the only one with tears in my eyes.

I have to say there a 2 ladies who ran their first (and probably last) half marathons on Saturday. One of them started running this year and a month or so ago told me she would do the 11km but didn't think she could do the half. I told her if I could do it anyone could do it. She SMASHED it and finish in 2hrs!!! And the other lady is a very fit hockey player who had been sick with the flu all week. She was planning to run with her sister as part of a team. That was until I spoke to her on Friday and said why not give it a crack and see how far you can get. Well not sure what her time was but she was way ahead of me. I am so proud of both these ladies! I am sure that with the sore muscles I am not their favourite person at the moment.

Our local community really got behind the event. We were blown away by the turn out. I had 2 wonderful ladies both named Vikki who really did all the hard work. They collected names and money, made sure everyone was where they were supposed to be and just made the whole thing run smoothly so I could concentrate on running. It could not have happened without them. Like I keep saying I just came up with the idea they helped make it happen.

The vibe of the day was just electric! I kept hearing next time we'll do this, Next year lets try this, I'll do a longer run next year. All this and I still hadn't had a shower to wipe off the sweat from this year. Hopefully this will become an annual event if for nothing else then it brought the community together and saw people achieve something they didn't think they could.

Bring on a well earnt holiday with lots of quality family time.

Tuesday 24 September 2013

Weight gain I am more then happy about.

The last 3 weeks or so have been very up and down. More up then down in lots of ways. In the last 3 weeks I have won a hockey Grand Final (never get tired of saying that), had our hockey wind up, and been to an AWESOME hens night. In that time I have put on just over a kilo. I am actually pretty excited about that. 

Why? Because in the past I would have put on a LOT more!!! It goes to show that I am learning (slowly) to deal with life and all it's ups, without throwing everything I have learnt over the last 9 months out the window. 

I am going to go back and listen to the Hypnotist recording whilst I am on holidays. I think as a few old habits are creeping back in it can't hurt to have a little refresh. 

Every week I write my weight on the whiteboard on the fridge. It's a great reminder of how far I have come. 
Oops how did that pic of the Premiers end up in there??? ;) 

I have not been so great at recording my measurements. I have been writing them in a book but not recording the dates that I took them. 

The very first row 114cm is the first measurements I took in January/February. As you can see I have measured since then but lord only knows when all these numbers were written down. So I have put today's measurements in my diary. I will do this every week from now on. 

I am off on holidays on Monday and looking forward to some much needed family time. We are going to the beach and other then catching up with some friends we have no plans. It will just be about spending time together. I really feel that given the last few weeks I can go on holidays and stay on track. I will be packing my running shoes and positive attitude. 

Here's to being more organised, re-invigorated, motivated & come Monday HOLIDAYS!!!! 

So here are this weeks stats
Weight 85.3
Weekly gain .5kg
Total removed 21.3kg
Total cm removed 80cm. 

Next week I will be on holidays. I will put my measurement results on facebook but there won't be a weigh in. 

Sunday 22 September 2013

A bit of a change in direction.

What a fantastic weekend I have just had. I had yet another weekend away from my kids (which is about my 5th for the year) HUGE thanks to hubby for staying home. Especially when Amelia decided it would be a great time to get sick and stay up all night. He even took them all to the local show by himself.

I went to a hens night on a boat in Perth. I'm not going to talk about the hens night because what happens on the boat stays on the boat. But what I will say it is was a great night with lots of laughs, dancing, food, drinks & a few firsts for me which I don't think I can talk about on here. The 4 girls who organised it did a fantastic job. It was great even though the boat was full of ladies who we beat in our grand final win 2 weeks ago and a few of them did try to throw me overboard at one point.

There was a bit of drama leading up the it though as we thought the weather was going to be cold and windy. So a shopping we went.......After looking around for a while I called on my style expert brother. (he's not so much an expert as he is honest) I found 2 dresses that I thought would be ok but I wasn't too sure if they were too tight or too short. After making a decision I sent a pic to my friend who was shopping for her outfit on the other side of Perth. She had just sent me a txt saying she had found something but one size was too small and the next one up was too big. Then she got my txt and it was the same dress!!! What did we do before mobile phones???
Nothing like a changeroom selfie. (Completely forgot to take one when we were all dressed up)

In my search for something a little warmer to wear I ventured into shops I have never entered before. It was a great feeling. I am now pretty comfortable in a size 14. It's the first size I grab when I am trying on clothes. Occasionally I have to go up a size as we all know clothes sizes are not the same in every shop.

It got me thinking about scales v's measurements. I have been struggling a bit with the number on the scales at the moment. 1 step forward 2 steps back. I am reluctant to throw the scales out as I find they really help keep me on track. But I am going to start to focus on my measurements and clothes. A bit of a change in direction. I will still do my Wednesday Weigh In but I will also measure up each week.

This is a way to help keep me positive and motivated. I am loving the feeling of clothes getting looser and find that each time I am folding washing there is always something to add to the 4 garbage bags of clothes I have sitting waiting to pass onto my sister.

Will do measurements this Wednesday and compare them to my ones I took in January. Then will do them every week.

Sunday 15 September 2013

Where oh where has my motivation gone????

Time for some re evaluation. I have had a busy couple of weeks. Nothing out of the ordinary just the usual for this time of the year. But I have been struggling with my meals. I have let old habits creep in again.

As I write this I am drinking a Diet Coke. I was doing so well at the start of the year only having the occasional one here and there. But it has crept back in to be a big part of my daily routine AGAIN. I could sit here and say 'starting tomorrow I am getting rid of it' but to be honest I am not sure if I really want to. I know that I should and I will. Just not right now.

That is the problem I have lost my motivation. I have gone up and down on the scales a bit over the last couple of months and am SLOWLY making headway. But I am really finding it hard to pull my socks up and get back on track. All I want to eat is everything that is bad for me or not even so much that but I want more then I should.

Bad habits are sneaking back in. Sneaky bastards they are. A little bit of cheese here, chocolate there, lollies in the car etc etc.

I am hoping as the weather starts to warm up so will my motivation and will power. I know that I have come a long way and that it takes time but sometimes it seems like time is standing still.

I am not where I wanted to be by mid September. I wanted to be under 80kg, Comfortably in size 14 pants and almost in size 12 tops. I am 83.5kg, squeezing into size 14 pants & size 14 top. My little shopping trip on Thursday was a big reality check and a realisation that I have a long way to go.
I saw this a while ago and maybe I should make one as a reminder to keep going. 

I just had to vent and I do feel better for it. Remember at the beginning I promised to share the good the bad and the ugly. Well here it is. Fingers crossed putting this in writing is the therapy I need to get back on track.

Thanks for listening and feel free to share if you have gone through a similar experience and how you got through it.

Tuesday 10 September 2013

Goodbye 'BIG' girl

It has been a BIG week this week. I will not bore you with all the details of how AWESOME our hockey team is. And how AMAZING it felt to win a grand final. And how the party afterwards was such a great night. I think you get the idea. And it's not that I can't remember it. I remember most of the night. It's safe to say the drinking ban has been lifted!!

I called in the shops on Sunday to grab a couple of clothes. I needed some new running pants and a couple of tops. I grabbed size 14's thinking they may be a little tight but I would 'shrink' into them. I didn't have time to try them on so when I got back to my sisters I was very surprised to find they fit quite well. I probably could have even gone with a size 12 top. 

I am starting to get used to my body being different but I still see myself as the 'big' girl in the room. I feel like if I go into shops and tell the shop assistant I am size 14 they will look at me as if to say 'yeah right'. But then I catch a glimpse of my reflection and realise I am not the 'big' girl I used to be. And I have worked damn hard to not be that girl anymore.


It does take a while to get used to it though. I still surprise myself when I try on new clothes or see the size tag when I am hanging the washing out. I have seen some photo's from the weekend and I was pleasantly surprised when I saw myself. Don't get me wrong I still have a long way to go but sometimes it's nice to reflect on how far I have come. 

I am off to an Intimo party today to buy some new underwear. I am in much need of new well fitted bras. As most women will agree when you lose weight the first place you lose it from is the last place you want to lose it from. Your boobies!!!! Much to my hubbies horror. 

Weekly Weigh In Results
Weekly Loss 700grams
Total Loss 23.1kg
6.9kg until my body scan.

I will be cracking my bottle of Moet this weekend at our hockey wind up. I wanted to wait until I could relax and enjoy it.

I have to say the scales haven't been moving a lot lately but I am definitely noticing a change in my shape and clothes. 

Tuesday 3 September 2013

It was a good idea at the time.

Do you ever have a great idea and then realise that perhaps you have bitten off more then you can chew????

I do this on a regular basis. As I have mentioned before I am organising a half marathon and 'fun' run for my local community to raise money to buy a defibrillator. The run is going from my house into town which is 21.1km. We are then having 2 other distances 11km & 2.5km. This way people of all fitness levels can be involved. We even have people riding bikes.

It was a great idea at the time but now it has come time to organise it all and make sure everything is covered. Everyone has a opinion of how things should go so it's a matter of taking a little bit of everything and putting it all together.

I am having a meeting tonight to get the details sorted. Sometimes you have to accept that you can't do everything yourself. I am not very good at this but I am slowly learning and getting better. I am just a bit of a control freak. But the first step is admitting you have a problem. Right???

Also this weekend we are playing in our hockey GRAND FINAL!!!! It is a very exciting for our club and our town. We haven't won an A grade premiership since 1982. So to say that this week is a big week is an understatement.

I did break my drinking ban last weekend. Which was not good.......not good at all!!! I only had one week to go but I got carried away. Which is soooo unlike me.

But the Moet is in the fridge for this weekend and I have a plan in place so I can survive the night and the next day without too much damage.

Weekly Weigh In Results
Weekly removal: 300grams
Total removed: 22.4kg
7.6kg till body scan.