As I write this I am drinking a Diet Coke. I was doing so well at the start of the year only having the occasional one here and there. But it has crept back in to be a big part of my daily routine AGAIN. I could sit here and say 'starting tomorrow I am getting rid of it' but to be honest I am not sure if I really want to. I know that I should and I will. Just not right now.
That is the problem I have lost my motivation. I have gone up and down on the scales a bit over the last couple of months and am SLOWLY making headway. But I am really finding it hard to pull my socks up and get back on track. All I want to eat is everything that is bad for me or not even so much that but I want more then I should.
Bad habits are sneaking back in. Sneaky bastards they are. A little bit of cheese here, chocolate there, lollies in the car etc etc.
I am hoping as the weather starts to warm up so will my motivation and will power. I know that I have come a long way and that it takes time but sometimes it seems like time is standing still.
I am not where I wanted to be by mid September. I wanted to be under 80kg, Comfortably in size 14 pants and almost in size 12 tops. I am 83.5kg, squeezing into size 14 pants & size 14 top. My little shopping trip on Thursday was a big reality check and a realisation that I have a long way to go.
I saw this a while ago and maybe I should make one as a reminder to keep going.
I just had to vent and I do feel better for it. Remember at the beginning I promised to share the good the bad and the ugly. Well here it is. Fingers crossed putting this in writing is the therapy I need to get back on track.
Thanks for listening and feel free to share if you have gone through a similar experience and how you got through it.